Chapter Ten
"If any man
serve me, let him follow me."
IT was nearly
midnight before the services at the Rectangle closed. Gray
stayed up long into Sunday morning, praying and talking with a
little group of converts who in the great experiences of their
new life, clung to the evangelist with a personal helplessness
that made it as impossible for him to leave them as if they
had been depending upon him to save them from physical death.
Among these converts was Rollin Page.
Virginia and her
uncle had gone home about eleven o'clock, and Rachel and
Jasper Chase had gone with them as far as the avenue where
Virginia lived. Dr. West had walked on a little way with them
to his own home, and Rachel and Jasper had then gone on
together to her mother's.
That was a little
after eleven. It was now striking midnight, and Jasper Chase
sat in his room staring at the papers on his desk and going
over the last half hour with painful persistence.
He had told
Rachel Winslow of his love for her, and she had not given him
her love in return. It would be difficult to know what was
most powerful in the impulse that had moved him to speak to
her tonight. He had yielded to his feelings without any
special thought of results to himself, because he had felt so
certain that Rachel would respond to his love. He tried to
recall the impression she made on him when he first spoke to
her.
Never had her
beauty and her strength influenced him as tonight. While she
was singing he saw and heard no one else. The tent swarmed
with a confused crowd of faces and he knew he was sitting
there hemmed in by a mob of people, but they had no meaning to
him. He felt powerless to avoid speaking to her. He knew he
should speak when they were alone.
Now that he had
spoken, he felt that he had misjudged either Rachel or the
opportunity. He knew, or thought he knew, that she had begun
to care something for him. It was no secret between them that
the heroine of Jasper's first novel had been his own ideal of
Rachel, and the hero in the story was himself and they had
loved each other in the book, and Rachel had not objected. No
one else knew. The names and characters had been drawn with a
subtle skill that revealed to Rachel, when she received a copy
of the book from Jasper, the fact of his love for her, and she
had not been offended. That was nearly a year ago.
Tonight he
recalled the scene between them with every inflection and
movement unerased from his memory. He even recalled the fact
that he began to speak just at that point on the avenue where,
a few days before, he had met Rachel walking with Rollin Page.
He had wondered at the time what Rollin was saying.
"Rachel,"
Jasper had said, and it was the first time he had ever spoken
her first name, "I never knew till tonight how much I
loved you. Why should I try to conceal any longer what you
have seen me look? You know I love you as my life. I can no
longer hide it from you if I would."
The first
intimation he had of a repulse was the trembling of Rachel's
arm in his. She had allowed him to speak and had neither
turned her face toward him nor away from him. She had looked
straight on and her voice was sad but firm and quiet when she
spoke.
"Why do you
speak to me now? I cannot bear it--after what we have seen
tonight."
"Why--what--"
he had stammered and then was silent.
Rachel withdrew
her arm from his but still walked near him. Then he had cried
out with the anguish of one who begins to see a great loss
facing him where he expected a great joy.
"Rachel! Do
you not love me? Is not my love for you as sacred as anything
in all of life itself?"
She had walked
silent for a few steps after that. They passed a street lamp.
Her face was pale and beautiful. He had made a movement to
clutch her arm and she had moved a little farther from him.
"No,"
she had replied. "There was a time I--cannot answer for
that you--should not have spoken to me--now."
He had seen in
these words his answer. He was extremely sensitive. Nothing
short of a joyous response to his own love would ever have
satisfied him. He could not think of pleading with her.
"Some
time--when I am more worthy?" he had asked in a low
voice, but she did not seem to hear, and they had parted at
her home, and he recalled vividly the fact that no good-night
had been said.
Now as he went
over the brief but significant scene he lashed himself for his
foolish precipitancy. He had not reckoned on Rachel's tense,
passionate absorption of all her feeling in the scenes at the
tent which were so new in her mind. But he did not know her
well enough even yet to understand the meaning of her refusal.
When the clock in the First Church struck one he was still
sitting at his desk staring at the last page of manuscript of
his unfinished novel.
Rachel went up
to her room and faced her evening's experience with
conflicting emotions. Had she ever loved Jasper Chase? Yes.
No. One moment she felt that her life's happiness was at stake
over the result of her action. Another, she had a strange
feeling of relief that she had spoken as she had. There was
one great, overmastering feeling in her. The response of the
wretched creatures in the tent to her singing, the swift,
powerful, awesome presence of the Holy Spirit had affected her
as never in all her life before. The moment Jasper had spoken
her name and she realized that he was telling her of his love
she had felt a sudden revulsion for him, as if he should have
respected the supernatural events they had just witnessed. She
felt as if it was not the time to be absorbed in anything less
than the divine glory of those conversions. The thought that
all the time she was singing, with the one passion of her soul
to touch the conscience of that tent full of sin, Jasper Chase
had been unmoved by it except to love her for herself, gave
her a shock as of irreverence on her part as well as on his.
She could not tell why she felt as she did, only she knew that
if he had not told her tonight she would still have felt the
same toward him as she always had. What was that feeling? What
had he been to her? Had she made a mistake? She went to her
book case and took out the novel which Jasper had given her.
Her face deepened in color as she turned to certain passages
which she had read often and which she knew Jasper had written
for her. She read them again. Somehow they failed to touch her
strongly. She closed the book and let it lie on the table.
She
gradually felt that her thought was busy with the sights she
had witnessed in the tent. Those faces, men and women, touched
for the first time with the Spirit's glory--what a wonderful
thing life was after all! The complete regeneration revealed
in the sight of drunken, vile, debauched humanity kneeling
down to give itself to a life of purity and Christlikeness--oh,
it was surely a witness to the superhuman in the world!
And
the face of Rollin Page by the side of that miserable wreck
out of the gutter! She could recall as if she now saw it,
Virginia crying with her arms about her brother just before
she left the tent, and Mr. Gray kneeling close by, and the
girl Virginia had taken into her heart while she whispered
something to her before she went out. All these pictures drawn
by the Holy Spirit in the human tragedies brought to a climax
there in the most abandoned spot in all Raymond, stood out in
Rachel's memory now, a memory so recent that her room seemed
for the time being to contain all the actors and their
movements.
"No!
No!" she said aloud. "He had no right to speak after
all that! He should have respected the place where our
thoughts should have been. I am sure I do not love him--not
enough to give him my life!"
And after she
had thus spoken, the evening's experience at the tent came
crowding in again, thrusting out all other things. It is
perhaps the most striking evidence of the tremendous spiritual
factor which had now entered the Rectangle that Rachel felt,
even when the great love of a strong man had come very near to
her, that the spiritual manifestation moved her with an
agitation far greater than anything Jasper had felt for her
personally or she for him.
The people of
Raymond awoke Sunday morning to a growing knowledge of events
which were beginning to revolutionize many of the regular,
customary habits of the town. Alexander Powers' action in the
matter of the railroad frauds had created a sensation not only
in Raymond but throughout the country. Edward Norman's daily
changes of policy in the conduct of his paper had startled the
community and caused more comment than any recent political
event. Rachel Winslow's singing at the Rectangle meetings had
made a stir in society and excited the wonder of all her
friends.
Virginia's
conduct, her presence every night with Rachel, her absence
from the usual circle of her wealthy, fashionable
acquaintances, had furnished a great deal of material for
gossip and question. In addition to these events which
centered about these persons who were so well known, there had
been all through the city in very many homes and in business
and social circles strange happenings. Nearly one hundred
persons in Henry Maxwell's church had made the pledge to do
everything after asking: "What would Jesus do?" and
the result had been, in many cases, unheard-of actions. The
city was stirred as it had never been before. As a climax to
the week's events had come the spiritual manifestation at the
Rectangle, and the announcement which came to most people
before church time of the actual conversion at the tent of
nearly fifty of the worst characters in that neighborhood,
together with the con version of Rollin Page, the well-known
society and club man.
It is no wonder
that under the pressure of all this the First Church of
Raymond came to the morning service in a condition that made
it quickly sensitive to any large truth. Perhaps nothing had
astonished the people more than the great change that had come
over the minister, since he had proposed to them the imitation
of Jesus in conduct. The dramatic delivery of his sermons no
longer impressed them. The self-satisfied, contented, easy
attitude of the fine figure and refined face in the pulpit had
been displaced by a manner that could not be compared with the
old style of his delivery.
The sermon had become a message. It
was no longer delivered. It was brought to them with a love,
an earnestness, a passion, a desire, a humility that poured
its enthusiasm about the truth and made the speaker no more
prominent than he had to be as the living voice of God. His
prayers were unlike any the people had heard before. They were
often broken, even once or twice they had been actually
ungrammatical in a phrase or two. When had Henry Maxwell so
far forgotten himself in a prayer as to make a mistake of that
sort? He knew that he had often taken as much pride in the
diction and delivery of his prayers as of his sermons. Was it
possible he now so abhorred the elegant refinement of a formal
public petition that he purposely chose to rebuke himself for
his previous precise manner of prayer? It is more likely that
he had no thought of all that. His great longing to voice the
needs and wants of his people made him unmindful of an
occasional mistake. It is certain that he had never prayed so
effectively as he did now.
There are times
when a sermon has a value and power due to conditions in the
audience rather than to anything new or startling or eloquent
in the words said or arguments presented. Such conditions
faced Henry Maxwell this morning as he preached against the
saloon, according to his purpose determined on the week
before. He had no new statements to make about the evil
influence of the saloon in Raymond. What new facts were there?
He had no startling illustrations of the power of the saloon
in business or politics. What could he say that had not been
said by temperance orators a great many times?
The effect of
his message this morning owed its power to the unusual fact of
his preaching about the saloon at all, together with the
events that had stirred the people. He had never in the course
of his ten years' pastorate mentioned the saloon as something
to be regarded in the light of an enemy, not only to the poor
and tempted, but to the business life of the place and the
church itself. He spoke now with a freedom that seemed to
measure his complete sense of conviction that Jesus would
speak so.
At the close he pleaded with the people to remember
the new life that had begun at the Rectangle. The regular
election of city officers was near at hand. The question of
license would be an issue in the election. What of the poor
creatures surrounded by the hell of drink while just beginning
to feel the joy of deliverance from sin? Who could tell what
depended on their environment? Was there one word to be said
by the Christian disciple, business man, citizen, in favor of
continuing the license to crime and shame-producing
institutions? Was not the most Christian thing they could do
to act as citizens in the matter, fight the saloon at the
polls, elect good men to the city offices, and clean the
municipality? How much had prayers helped to make Raymond
better while votes and actions had really been on the side of
the enemies of Jesus? Would not Jesus do this? What disciple
could imagine Him refusing to suffer or to take up His cross
in this matter? How much had the members of the First Church
ever suffered in an attempt to imitate Jesus? Was Christian
discipleship a thing of conscience simply, of custom, of
tradition? Where did the suffering come in? Was it necessary
in order to follow Jesus' steps to go up Calvary as well as
the Mount of Transfiguration?
His appeal was
stronger at this point than he knew. It is not too much to say
that the spiritual tension of the people reached its highest
point right there. The imitation of Jesus which had begun with
the volunteers in the church was working like leaven in the
organization, and Henry Maxwell would even thus early in his
life have been amazed if he could have measured the extent of
desire on the part of his people to take up the cross. While
he was speaking this morning, before he closed with a loving
appeal to the discipleship of two thousand years' knowledge of
the Master, many a man and woman in the church was saying as
Rachel had said so passionately to her mother: "I want to
do something that will cost me something in the way of
sacrifice." "I am hungry to suffer something."
Truly, Mazzini was right when he said that no appeal is quite
so powerful in the end as the call: "Come and
suffer."
The service was
over, the great audience had gone, and Maxwell again faced the
company gathered in the lecture room as on the two previous
Sundays. He had asked all to remain who had made the pledge of
discipleship, and any others who wished to be included. The
after service seemed now to be a necessity. As he went in and
faced the people there his heart trembled. There were at least
one hundred present. The Holy Spirit was never before so
manifest. He missed Jasper Chase. But all the others were
present. He asked Milton Wright to pray. The very air was
charged with divine possibilities. What could resist such a
baptism of power? How had they lived all these years without
it?